As I have traveled my particular path, I have found out things about myself that I had no idea I possessed. For one thing, I walked in a cloud. I was a strong person, I thought. But, this cloud was produced by the fatigue brought on by the pressures of the uncertain and unknown. We never knew when we would have to make a visit to the hospital, how long the emergency room visit would take, would we be admitted?, was it just a scare? A lot of the time, I was simply putting one foot in front of the other and making it through the day.
After my Mother and Husband passed away, I realized how much pressure I had been under. The thing about it is, it doesn't just go away because the initial cause is gone. I had to begin this new path without them. I had to begin to find me again. I was no longer two people, because caregivers are themselves and the hands and feet, and the voice, of the loved one they have cared for. Where to begin?
I needed to be with my kids. So, I began attending the church that two of my daughters were members of. I had known the Pastor for many years and the sign behind the pulpit was a soft place for me to land. It read: Dominion Church, a place of faith, hope and healing. My faith was pretty battered, my hope was absent and I NEEDED healing. I found the time and energy to do just that. Pastor Thurstonson acted like I was still the same person he had known years before. He never pushed me to become active, but allowed me to find a place I could heal quietly.
God has a plan. Read Jeremiah 29:11 and stand on it. If you are in the process of caregiving, God will truly work miracles on your behalf. If you are on the other side and need the comfort of His arms, the Holy Spirit will hold you tightly so the healing can begin.
Have a wonderful Wednesday!
Triumphal Entry into Jerusalem.
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